I’ve been off booze and a regular user of delta-8 (weed isn’t legal in my state) for a few years. I’ve been in “I’m gonna quit soon” mode for months, but if I’m being honest, in the right dosage, weed really helps my AuDHD. I actually find it easier to get things done when I’m high. I’ve always chalked this up to my brain craving stimulation and dopamine, but now I’m not so sure. Truth be told, I don’t know anything about brain chemistry, I only have a gut feeling of what helps and what doesn’t, and I usually go off that when it comes to psychiatric medication. I know Zoloft makes me feel like shit, and weed makes me feel good, yet I feel so much more guilt taking the latter.
I relate so strongly to this challenge -- that social messaging that there's something WRONG with taking a drug and that somatic knowledge that it makes my life easier, and the seeming impossibility of disentangling what your body knows from what we've been taught about what we're allowed to want or need.
I’ve been off booze and a regular user of delta-8 (weed isn’t legal in my state) for a few years. I’ve been in “I’m gonna quit soon” mode for months, but if I’m being honest, in the right dosage, weed really helps my AuDHD. I actually find it easier to get things done when I’m high. I’ve always chalked this up to my brain craving stimulation and dopamine, but now I’m not so sure. Truth be told, I don’t know anything about brain chemistry, I only have a gut feeling of what helps and what doesn’t, and I usually go off that when it comes to psychiatric medication. I know Zoloft makes me feel like shit, and weed makes me feel good, yet I feel so much more guilt taking the latter.
I relate so strongly to this challenge -- that social messaging that there's something WRONG with taking a drug and that somatic knowledge that it makes my life easier, and the seeming impossibility of disentangling what your body knows from what we've been taught about what we're allowed to want or need.